Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
Hebrews 11:1
withers away @ 11:19 pm
for once, for just that time, i was glad im graduating. freaking glad. i didnt need this now u know. i dun need it anytime. traumatised. and i dun get traumatised alot. so when i say im traumatised, i AM traumatised. to hell with u. for the first time in my life i really wanted to say fuck off.
withers away @ 3:10 pm
“来了。”
她闭上双眼，耳边只有风的声音，很强烈但很温柔地呼唤着她。她觉得前所未有地放松，就让风把她那柔弱的身躯带走。轻轻的，没有束缚的。小小的，没有什么的。
随风，随风。到哪里，到那里……
tomorrow i'll die
be my lullaby
withers away @ 12:47 pm
just for laughs again. this was what we did for night of 77 stars, our annual blk c production, which is always so full of crap. i rmbr laughing my ass off at kaiyuan and his batch of dancers with their "dick in the box" dance 2 yrs back. u so totally cannot guess what he is working as now.
so hall ppl always do stupid things like this huh. but like what darius said when he agreed to do that stupid ad for us, this is the last chance to do smth stupid like this already. true.
withers away @ 7:00 pm
a job gets u nowhere. relationships do. that's the beauty of life. and that's where it sucks too.
from here:
有些人一直没机会见，等有机会见了，却又犹豫了，相见不如不见。
有些事一直没机会做，等有机会了，却不想再做。
有些话埋藏在心中好久，没机会说，等有机会说的时候，却说不出口。
有些爱一直没机会爱，等有机会了，却已经不爱。
有些人很多机会相见的，却总找借口推脱，想见的时候已经没有机会。
有些话有很多机会说的，却想着以后再说，要说的时候，已经没有机会。
有些事有很多机会做的，却一天一天推迟，想做的时候却发现没有机会。
有些爱给了你很多机会，却不在意没在乎，想重视的时候已经没有机会爱了。
人生有时候，总是很讽刺。
一转身可能就是一世。说好永远的，不知怎么就散了。
最后自己想来想去竟然也搞不清当初是什么原因分开彼此的。
然后，你忽然醒悟，感情原来是这么脆弱的。
经得起风雨，却经不起平凡；风雨同船，天晴便各自散。
也许只是赌气，也许只是因为小小的事。
幻想着和好的甜蜜，或重逢时的拥抱，
那个时候会是边流泪边捶打对方，还傻笑着。
该是多美的画面。
没想到的是，一别竟是一辈子。
于是，各有各的生活，各自爱着别的人。
曾经相爱，现在已互不相干。
即使在同一个小小的城市，也不曾再相逢。
某一天某一刻，走在同一条街，也看不见对方。
先是感叹，后来是无奈。
也许你很幸福，因为找到另一个适合自己的人。
也许你不幸福，因为可能你这一生就只有那个人真正用心在你身上。
at the end of that entry he included the mv of a particular song. due to said blogger's age, i couldnt recognize the song title. but when i played the mv i SANG ALONG. *slaps forehead*
朋友别哭 - 吕方
有没有一扇窗
能让你不绝望
看一看花花世界
原来象梦一场
有人哭有人笑
有人输有人老
到结局还不是一样
有没有一种爱
能让你不受伤
这些年堆积多少
对你的知心话
什么酒醒不了
什么痛望不掉
向前走
就不可能回头望
朋友别哭
我依然是你心灵的归宿
朋友别哭
要相信自己的路
红尘中
有太多茫然痴心的追逐
你的苦
我也有感触
朋友别哭
我一直在你心灵最深处
朋友别哭
我陪你就不孤独
人海中
难得有几个真正的朋友
这份情
请你不要不在乎
withers away @ 10:48 pm
defense mechanisms.
denial. repression.
adult attachment styles.
anxious attachment. preoccupied attachment.
mood disorders.
major depressive disorder. bipolar disorder.
personality disorders. anxiety disorders.
obsessive-compulsive disorder.
my rate of hairfall is impressive.
withers away @ 12:47 am
好听的电视主题曲，只能从电台听到，连歌词都不容易找。直接从填词人那里拿的。
安全區﹣林倛玉
靜靜等候 一陣暖流
暖和被時間冷落的巷口
想你有多濃 自己也不太懂
寂寞的味覺如何形容
你說溫柔 是一個詛咒
感動過的人終究都會走
我雖不認同 假裝都諒解心就越疼痛
而藥方是能夠重逢
安全區 是你的回憶
很美麗 於是你走不開怕回不去
只可惜 再努力也只準我留在原地
愛是等待唯一的動力
你走以後 想念是魔咒
緊握你說過的話不罷手
我們都相同 把愛裝進了沉默這信封
寄不出只好等重逢
安全區 是你的回憶
很美麗 你的心除了他誰進得去
到如今 我還在這裡哪怕只是多餘
愛是等待所有的動力
withers away @ 3:23 pm
蔡肚子
黄屁股
廖鼻子
李脚板
王头皮
梁肩膀
dun ask me. really. dun ask me. i also dunno!
withers away @ 1:50 pm
喜欢演唱会的感觉。喜欢阿信唱歌时大家跟着一起合唱的感觉。喜欢冠佑停下他的鼓时大家跟着安静的感觉。喜欢阿信唱得激昂时差点破音的感觉。
部分歌词如下
單純的孩子是否變了樣
跟著遊戲規則學著成長
所謂的彩虹不過就是光
只要心還透明 就能折射希望
其實我們都一模一樣
無名卻充滿了莫名渴望
一生等 一次 發光
寧願重傷也 不願悲傷
讓傷痕變成了我的徽章
刺在我心臟 永遠不忘
每個孤獨天亮
我都一個人唱
默默的讓這旋律
和我心交響
就算會有一天
沒人與我合唱
至少在我的心中
還有個尚未崩壞的地方
我心中尚未崩壞的地方 - 五月天
withers away @ 4:00 pm
its sure weird seeing someone u deem to be around ur age going for ROM. as in her own ROM. yeah its true. we've all grown up, no more growing up.
withers away @ 10:42 pm
your only son, no sin to hide
but you have sent him from your side
to walk upon this guilty sod
and to become the lamb of God
oh lamb of God
sweet lamb of God
i love the holy lamb of God
oh wash my in your precious blood
my Jesus Christ the lamb of God
your gift of love, they crucified
they laughed and scorned him as he died
the humble king, they named a fraud
and sacrificed the lamb of God
btw the aforementioned guy is a fictitious character from a drama. but the guy in rl doesnt seem too bad also. HA.
guys are a joy. but the problem here is, guys are a chore as well. and the bigger problem is, they come together, bundled as a package. so its joy + chore, or no joy no chore. so which is better? well depends on whether yours gives u more joy or more chore i guess. and whether u look at SR or LR. hiya i can go on forever like this so i should just shuddup.
the illusion: i'm v free. the fact: i'm not supposed to be free.
oops. i just gave myself away.
withers away @ 3:51 pm
他笨是笨了一点，但是很贴心。我要这种男人!
withers away @ 12:11 am
i was rushing to catch the buses to go home, but i couldnt help but pause for a while, looking at the seniors' farewell gift and certificate. it wasnt tear-jerking. it wasnt overwhelming. but this is definitely smth close to my heart when i watched the farewell video and ppt, with words and pictures dedicated to each one of us.
the last time. this is the last time. but at least i know its the last. better than not knowing and coming to regret after.
we're the only blk with a blk anthem. i cant quite place my feelings. i... ohwell. maybe u cant appreciate my feelings. its ok. u dun have to.
residents of block c
come and heed the call
dare to reach the highest
in everything we do
we live in harmony
we work in unity
we're proud we're from block c
we're proud we're from sheares hall
withers away @ 11:52 pm
everyone shows his pain and handles it differently. it could be outward indifference, it could be a fervent search for answers, it could be holing up silently, it could be anything. he doesn't just move on with life like that. its only a matter of whether u see it as how he sees it, whether u feel it as how he feels it, whether u understand it as how he understands it.
u can't feel that much guilt without love.
this has never been about what u missed. this is about why u missed it.
lose you by pete yorn
i’m taking a ride off to one side
it is a personal thing
where?
when i can’t stand
up in this cage i’m not regretting
i don’t need a better thing
i’d settle for less
it’s another thing for me
i just have to wander through this world
alone
stop before you fall
into the hole that i have dug here
rest even as you
are starting to feel the way i used to
i don’t need a better thing
just to sound confused
don’t talk about everyone
i am not amused by you
i’m gonna lose you
yeah i’m gonna lose you
if i’m gonna lose you
i’m gonna lose you,
yeah i’m gonna lose you
if i’m gonna lose you
i’ll lose you now for good
withers away @ 1:34 am
warning: a smelly post ahead.
went to bukit timah hill for my fieldtrip today. in the rain. so u thought we just went up the even cement road like during cultural mapping back in nj? sorry we went through the forest itself through supposed tracks and stairs. but... tracks? stairs? sorry, they just turned into sediment-filled streams and rapids in the rain. it was so humid our specs started fogging. and the cicada were so loud we thought it was renovation. but it was really quite an experience haha.
we were too busy looking at the ground and trekking, oh i mean treading through the forest floor that i didnt have time (nor hands) to take photos. But here's my shoes and socks for u at the end of the day.
on a totally different note:爱情的确会让人变温柔。她是这样，他也是这样XD
withers away @ 12:23 am
我的天。人怎么说死就死。34岁。乳癌末期。
她没有大红过，但是她的歌肯定有。《叶子》，听过吧。
叶子，是不会飞翔的翅膀。翅膀，是落在天上的叶子。
孤单，是一个人的狂欢。狂欢，是一群人的孤单。
只是心又飘到了哪里，就连自己看也看不清，我想我不仅仅是失去你。
阿桑。
突然，大家都记得回来，你呢？我，还在原地等待。大家，都开始飞了。我，还在原地等待。
withers away @ 2:20 am
像个妈妈看着孩子成长般，我竟然湿了眼眶。我干嘛啊，泪腺分泌过盛。别管我，我没事，只是感触很多很多很多。
withers away @ 3:58 am
for entertainment again. i literally lol-ed when i read them.
http://blog.omy.sg/chimkang/2009/04/01/
http://adrenalynne.blogspot.com/2008/12/taiji-champion.html
其实，对我来说，读部落格跟阅读很相似。我读的，是一个又一个live的自传。今天，我花了一整晚的时间，读着一个又一个、一篇又一篇这好几个月、或是一年来我所忽略的部落格。我不觉得我浪费了时间。我得到的，是和阅读过后有的同样饱满的感觉，是一种心灵的饱足感。我得到的不是学术上的知识，而是借别人的眼睛看别人的世界得到的莫名的满足。
读着读着，有一些感触。
长大了，该让你去飞了。问、谈论，是因为关心、担心。我一直没有说，但是一路走来，我一直在后面笑着。微笑着，欣慰地微笑着。因为人生一些美好的东西，是时候让你知道了，即便它会带来悲伤，它还是很美好的。
这是从她的节目听到的，再从她的部落格摘录的。男人应该听好来！
不管你給女人什麼 , 她都會放大倍增 .
你給她精子 , 她會幫你生個孩子 !
你給她一棟房子 , 她會為你創造一個家園 !
你帶她去買菜 , 她會為你做出一桌的料理 !
你給她一個微笑 . 她可以把整顆心都給你 !
不管你給她什麼 , 她都會放大倍增 !
所以 , 如果你給她任何廢物 , 她也會加倍奉還給你 !!!!!!
withers away @ 3:50 am
neurobiology is freaking difficult to understand, but it's absolutely fascinating.
withers away @ 9:06 pm
for some entertainment.
this is my blk's seniors' farewell video. i look stupid in it. but its ok coz its meant to be funny. i shall leave emo stuff abt farewells till later. if u are bored or need to destress, watch this.